1/4 century..

as the day passed by.. unsurprisingly, i didn't feel at all different.. well, actually.. all the warm wishes did make me smile and made my heart felt all warm inside, for just a little while.. as for everything else, and sh*t that happened on that day, they left me feeling as crappy as any other day in my life.. i didn't set out to feel special on the day, but i did hope that i can at least go to sleep with a smile on my face, knowing that my first official day as a 25 year old went well.. oh well, we can't always get what we want..

my exam didn't go so well.. i'm praying hard to pass, so that i won't be called for viva, and i can have a great time with the crazy kids at lat's big day.. more importantly, i really don't want to prolong my stay in paeds..

knowing what to do, and actually doing it is so hard, why? i'm starting to think that i've become a coward.. or maybe i'm just being too nice.. why are things that are supposed to make me feel good about myself ended up making me feel like crap? i just don't get it.. what am i doing wrong?

this is not good.. my first post after that day, and already it's so negative.. not good, not good..