fun roadtrip!

our road trip to the north was a LOT of fun! filled with laughter and joy, and of course, lots and lots of yummy yummy food.. for a second i was determined to marry a kampung guy so that i could eat delicious kampung food whenever i feel like it.. hahaha~ XP and the scenery plus the weather were just so calming and so serene.. we even get to hang out with ija, wanie, echah and bed.. melur and adney have grown so big, and much much cuter! i feel like i could just eat them up! XD

congrats ayong and abang soh! have a wonderful life together.. :D

the bride is soo pretty and they both looked so happy that just looking at them, almost bring me tears.. almost. they shoot off for their honeymoon soon after the kenduri.. i think i might use that idea for my wedding too.. heee. i even dream of having a reception at dewan perdana felda jalan semarak, but mama blew me off because it's too expensive and we're not having that much of guests anyway.. huuu. kuciwaaa....

we had a wonderful and joyful dinner at menara alor setar.. the view was breathtaking, but more importantly, all the food and laughter just gave me stomach ache! :D and after a long long time, i finally get to eat awis's cheesecake! and also had a ride in put's new car..weeee~ :D tak kempunan telur ikan tembakul dah la pasni.. hahaha~ :P thanx guys for making the time to hang out with me.. :)

the long hours in the car and through the nights gave alang and me plenty to think and talk about.. we had some pretty 'matang' conversations, but most of all, we just talked about some silly stuffs the way we usually do.. macam tak bese la pulak kan.. hahaha~ :P

anyway, i'm admitting it now. i know i shouldn't, but i have fell deeper than i intend to.. i'm still saving some room for my own safety, and i'm hoping for the best but also preparing for the worst.. the thing is, i just realized that i'm more messed up than i ever realized before.. i'm afraid of wanting the things that i want, because i'm afraid of getting hurt if and when i lose it.. maybe i'm still that little girl who's just too scared, and damaged.. ahh i'm hopeless.